Spinning: "Broken" - Seether feat. Amy Lee / "Goin' Crazy" - Natalie

Been quite some time since I last blogged. Haix...so confused. Well first thing first, itch seems to subside but it still itch real bad at times. A blog is an internet diary but after reading a classmate's blog. It seems to ponder to me that this blog will never b pvt, there's no way u r gonna voiced out ur displeasure of someone and to write some emotional/pvt stuffs. But well who cares, not like most of them know the existence of my blog anyway.
Been caught in a love triangle. I supposed I am...argh...dunno wad to do. Read the email yesterday. Haix...think I hurt the person...how deep did I hurt this person I have absolute no idea but just that the email was rather saddening. Haix...wad am I supposed to do I mean its no choice. Complicated stuffs...aint gonna scribble much here. Too pvt. Just take it I like someone and I gotta be honest with myself. Shouldn't be in a state of confusion. Argh. Feeling real succky...someone talk to me. How I wished someone understand what I am going and talkin bout. Argh Argh Argh....
Cold war ended which is quite cool though still dun talk much to my parents. It will just get worst if more talkings are involved. Dad asked bout how I fare for my driving test. Wanted me to go to the next level by learning how to drive now. Quite ccool. Tot of talking bout that with him but since my Dad asked me bout it so its kinda settled. Not so soon but soon after I do wadeva is needed during the wkends. Am pretty much tired and stressed out by love thingy and sch. School really suxs...This is the 6th weeks and yearning for my 2weeks break so much. Haix...gonna plan something to do though. Ought to. Haix... But one thing to be glad is that my shoes no longer hug to my feet anymore. Clever me to pull my socks a bit higher though I never like the idea especially since I am wearing ankle socks but for the sake of my feets I gotta do that.
Skipped French class today. Was really pretty tired and wad can I say. Defiant. First time I decided to just skipped something to go home and sleep and to study for tomorrow's stupid Biz Finance test. Oldie said must passed or else have to hand up tutorial works. Aint gonna do that lor..that would further tightened the invisible umbilical cord ard me. Pretty much stressed out with life. Its to the max really. Wanna escaped reality but where can I run to? Get myself drunk again? Down my sorrows with such child's play?
Someone answer me? Nid to talk...really nid that. Has to settle the relationship thing. Sometimes I feel I should just stay single and things should be fine. Prob a typical young boi infatuation. Wouldn't last long. Gotta convinced myself that single is good. Single over rules everything.


| N a m e C r u i s e d A t 5/26/2005 10:16:00 PM |