Spinning: "Nothing Hurts Like Love" - Daniel Bedingfield

Back from exams...finally I can breathe a sigh of RELIEF. Honestly, alot of stuffs happen, home, exams, friends and MONEY haha...

Exams pretty much sucks...should haf work harder instead but I was like playing harder. First of all exams really sucks. Its so much worst than last semester. Argh...kong ba haf to go back to take supp papers liao. First time taking supp paper, dunno what the feeling would actually be like. LoLx...like a small young child starting pre-school cant bear to leave the arms of mummy and daddy. Though I remember clearly its my mummy. LoLx...All the wonderful but mostly forgotten childhood memories. Dun really know wad to say but I feel that Financial Services, Marketing management and Biz Law...Hmmm..dunno wad to say but maybe partially I never put in much effort also la. LoLx...And another partial part is all that Eileen Ng's fault but wads more to talk about. She just has to settle everything herself now. Loads of complaining after that damn paper. And aprtially because of that matter with Damen. Dun think was resolved and that has been a hinderance to my studies. My entire brain was that issue and instead of absorbing what I am learning.

Im feeling very empty now. Supposed to start work soon. Why am I feeling so empty? Where are my friends? Friends where have u guys gone to? Mas and Sak my cliques in school...no news...LoLx...till TEP then do we meet. LoLx...Haix...so sad so sad...

ALot of bubbling questions up in my head. Dunno where to start from. Dunno where to end it either. Last fri went to drink with "someone special"...how to claim that the person is someone special when I know her for so damn long years. OMG man...and I am actually doing all these for you know who u are and for wadeva special reasons la. LoLx...and I still owe u a cheesecake yea...Come and ged from me when Im officially working dere since u stay so near too. Okie u know wad happen la so I dun wanna hear u askin me again okie. Oh FUCK man...wad is the drink Bloody Mary all about. Fucking shit liquor it sucks. Should haf listen to you and ordered something that we know of right. But i wanted to try something I haf never tried before. So Bloody Mary u r damn Bloody Disgusting. I think I am getting into a depression I guessed. Haix...why is it that this issue is not resolve yet when this friend has already answered me. Haix...Eski Bar was great. Tot could ged myself tipsy by drinking Long Island Tea but end up I was wrong. Its not strong enough but my cheeks were rosy. Almost got a ticking off from my Dad cos he ask me not to drink too much at such strage place since u might not know wad they might put in ur drink. Drug my drink? Oh pls I tot that only happens to wild girls? LoLx...But anyway we both got to know Andreas...erm a bit wierd n hysterical 23yrs old guy. Super hyper kid too but dunno wad he is blabbering about for the whole entire day. LoLx...and I think or rather we both think that he's interested with ahem...well dun be surprising since you have a playgirl look. LoLx...The way he look at you...erm gif me the creeps cos he wants n nids u badly as a gf...LoLx...and yea Eski bar is a great place with erm nice ambience. LoLx...come on guys let meet up again and start crapping and just haf fun yea...Haha

Attended a party right after my 2nd paper. Incredible rite. Should b home studying but I went instead. I dunno y. Didn't know anyone. Wad The Fuck wanted to left but if not for Damen I would haf already left. Its him who open that damn fucking door. He save me from the clutches of embarassment. Was already writing an sms to the host planning to leave and he brought my shyness away. I became so open and started crapping with the people that I dunno. Didnt know I could pull off like that but i really did. Clap for me ba. Went clubbing after that and promise to leave with Damen but ended up leaving with another friend. Big mistake big mistake. Fuck man...Fuck Fuck Fuck...I ended up destroying a friendship. Fuck Fuck Fuck....dunno wad to say dunno wad to elaborate bout. Haix..this is wad is bothering me so much. Tremendous impact. Fuck.

Anyway...been mugging at home for these past 2 days. Weird rite...been hogging that wadeva inch I know big n huge plasma tv and that DVD player. I was watching Lovers In Paris. A Korean drama. Gif out my secret to you ba. I am a very emotional guy. Was crying yea because of the show and bcos of that issue la. Silly boi rite. Haha..wanna just take off now u know. Want to pack my bag and fly to a no man land. Erm not no man land but rather somewhere where no one I know and vice versa la. LoLx...Haix...so much haf happen.

Let me just relate something I have learnt from that show. Born with a silver spoon but haf someone like those born with a silver spoon ever haf any worries? Do they walk listlessly? No cos they always use money to solve every problems. For me I was doing all the opposite of a silver spoon man. I was walking listlessly and aimlessly. Can't see anything infront of me cos the picture is bleak. Scary. I guess no one has seen me like that before. Really scary. Went for dental appointment yesterday. Doc was talking to me but my mind was not dere. He was askin me a question and I actually never answered. And he answered my question intended for me himself. LoLx...Today went for a swim in hope to forget that issue...my mum was like talking to me I was like in no mood to answer cos I was also thinking bout that issue. Sian ah...

Tat Wee wake up.

Tmr, going for my work training. I believe it would be a perfect bright sunny day. Jia you Tat Wee and well start life anew and fresh. Forget all the unpleasant stuffs and jus haf fun and enjoy.


| N a m e C r u i s e d A t 8/16/2005 11:57:00 PM |